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Irc-galleria is not working, so I came here. :D It've been again 3 weeks since last entry...

So!

I'm listening to Kagerou at the moment. The last time I listened to them was maybe... three years ago? :o The time is running, you know. I saw Nightwish three weeks ago and to tell the truth - that was the best gig ever. ♥ We'll see is X JAPAN's or D'espairsRay gig even better! On the next week end I'm going to Helsinki (again) to girugamesh's (again) and MUCC's gigs. :D And again, the time is running! I remember how excited I was when I bought the ticket. *___* And now it's only three mornings left! I'm going to see also my friends~~ 8) ♥

Myky, our exchange student arrives to Finland tomorrow, and she comes to Seinäjoki at Sunday - when I'm in Helsinki... So I'm going to see her on Monday! I'm so excited!

Hmm, what else... I dyed my hair! Now I'm not blond anymore. :D I bought shock red named "Red Passion" but this seems more wine red on my hair... But I still like it! ^^

Abayo!

Oh God, I've almost forgot my own blog again! I was just afraid - what if I don't have anything to write? And I think there aren't many people who reads this blog. : D If there are any?

Tell the truth, I have had really bad feeling through couple of weeks. And it's going even worse. .__. This feeling is as horrible as it was last autumn and winter. I wish it goes over SOON. I could blow my head up, so you can guess how much I hate this. u___u I don't want to tell the reasons why I'm feeling like this - even if I know them all. But I'm so thankful to Kai ♥ He has made my day couple of times. I just could say I love him : D It's just so easy to tell him what I'm feeling and so on! I hope he is feeling better because of his nearbys death. .____. I don't want he's feeling sad.

I'm falling in love... with Satsuki's voice! ~(○*w*○~) ♥♥

9 days to Nightwish! ♥

Comprehensive school is tomorrow over! o___o The second level here I come!

See ya!

Two weeks without an entry. Sorry guys. ;< I don't have nothing special to write but ....... Yeah.

A week ago was girugamesh. I don't miss them yet : D I think I'm not going to miss them that much, 'cause I'm going to Tuska Open Air (where MUCC and girugamesh have gigs) so.. only 46 mornings and I'm going to see them again =)

I've been so tired at these days. I've lost my voice - really, I'm quiet like a doll but I have a terrible cough. I don't like this at all, believe me.

I'm going to see Laura, Sofia and Julia on Saturday, yay ♥ Is someone coming too?

See ya!

Days were running since my last entry. My life is just so boring that I hadn't anything to write about. XD

Quess what. I got the ticket to D'espairsRay's gig in Finland *___* All thanks belongs to tiku, thank you dear ♥ I don't even stress about X Japan's Paris concert right now. I'm so relieved at the time for my budget. Yesterday I send txt to kreiss and asked if she wants to come with me to Sauna Open Air 2009. She replied yes so I'm going to see Nightwish on June! ;___; ♥ Oh God I've missed them soooo much! I've missed Jukka's grins, Marco's headbangs and roars, Tuomas whole being on the stage and his scent (♥) of course, Emppu's exhilarating actions and his flirt (*insert fangirlsm here*), and Anette's speaks and her thankful words. kreiss, you absolutely made my day ♥

So here are gigs I'm going to:
girugamesh @ Helsinki, Tavastia 06.05.
Nightwish @ Tampere, Sauna Open Air festival 07.06
girugamesh & MUCC @ Helsinki, Tuska Open Air festival 28.06.
D'espairsRay @ Helsinki, Nosturi 25.07.
X Japan @ Paris, Bercy(?) ??.07?
Nightwish @ Helsinki, Hartwall Arena 19.09.
X Japan @ Finland ??.??

I've made a desicion. I stop eating red meat first of all. I also want to start eating more healthy food than earlier. When I don't miss meat anymore I stop eating fish and chicken too 8) Yeah, that absolutely takes time but I wanna try! I just think how it's going to turn out well because my parents and my brother still eats red meat and so on... We'll see~!


 

Yeah, I know, I know... I promised to write something here about X-larp, but I don't have now time for that. The week end was absolutely best ever, one of the best days I've ever had. We were roleplaying about six hours, then we decided to keep a little break. Well.... The break was eight hours long. XD But it was really fun! We talked EVERYTHING between Earth and heaven, we talked everything which were profundity thoughts. Hmm... Like... Depression, eating disorders, hospitals... X (no way?)... Paranormal things, hmm.... And we also talked something about bands HIM, Dir en grey and D'espairsRay : DD

Monday was the strangest day ever! At morning I was very pissed off, but when I arrive to home I heard that Despa is coming to Finland... Oh God I'm still confused. First I just said in my mind that I knew it, then I was just.... unspoken, and then I started to cry like a little baby XDDDD Believe me, that was the worst feeling ever when I realized that X JAPAN's Yoshiki said in February that they'll maybe come to France on July. THINK ABOUT IT. D'espairsRay is 25th July, and X JAPAN...... FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK. I'm never been this scared. What if the gigs are on the same day? What the hell I'm going to do then? Maybe I'm going to hang myself like hide did (but in my case that wouldn't be a accident) You don't know how much I've cried on Monday and on Tuesday.

I know that there are many errors in this text but fuck, i dont care about it now. I just want that you know how afraid I am.

This day is much more better than yesterday. First of all I'm still very tired, so maybe I'll go to sleep tonight earlier.

I had today again trustee meeting. I don't like her, she's so.... argh! =D The trustee believes that she knows everything about me and my feelings. That's not true at all! XD She said I'm much more cheerful nowadays compared to what it was on last autumn. Maybe that's kinda true, I have to agree. :o After that I went to the geography lesson and my teacher gave me a piece of paper and I did a test. Believe it or not, I got 100% right, yay!

At social studies lesson I got a txt from my mom. Simple message: "We've got an exchange student for next summer! Her name is Myky and she's here for three weeks. She comes 28th June." On that day I'm in Tuska Open Air (girugamesh & MUCC rockrock!) so I'll see her on the next day when I arrive back to Seinäjoki. She's from Malaysia, if I remember right, but she moved to America when she was eight years old (and if I remember right again). She likes j-pop and k-pop. =D I hope I'm not a pop-fan after the summer! And I'm very happy she's not like a million dollar princess like ours previous exchange was. u___u After all June looks brilliant month for me! I see Nightwish again 24th June, and I suppose that D'espairsRay comes to Finland on June too. And Yoshiki promised (or he did plan it...) that the concert is in France on June. *___* All three of my favourite bands! ♥

Tomorrow is X liveroleplay! I'm little nervous but I think it goes away at latest on tomorrow. We are X! Celebration!

God, I'm hungy~ :c

And my English still sucks. XDD

Abayo!

This is the third time I want to keep up my own blog. I fed up with IRC-gallery's diary, I tried to stop spamming. That wasn't easy! So I decided to start writing here my real feelings of living. Forgive me for my English, I haven't used it this often for a very many months! That's one of the reasons to uphold this blog.

Let's start!

I don't know the reason but I've been very pissed off for a couple of weeks. Of course there are good days, too, but always the same feeling. Maybe it's just this spring depression - the same thing is repeated every year. *sigh*

Today I went to the centre of this town with my mom. She bought me new jacket and I even liked it! Mom was disappointed - she said it's too manly to me XD -, but I don't really care. =D She also bought me a dress to my cousin's party. Damn, I don't know the word! XD ....Rippijuhlat, u know? I think the dress was a bit over the top u___u Why can't I just put on nice and suitable clothes? I don't understand her point of view at all. =D

Hmm... Maybe this was all today. I just want to go to the bed right now. :<

Bye~